It's hard for me to pinpoint which came first the physical, mental, or cognitive problems. Certainly all three are there thanks to a singular event but to narrow down which showed up first is difficult. I've spent a little time scrolling through medical records and as far as I can tell I have not been told at any point the extent of the total damage. I know from personal experience that I have a hard time grasping certain concepts but hell that might be straight up social anxiety. As far as being put in a category for learning problems I don't think I have been. I was mainstreamed in school that seemed to work moderately well but there was always that feeling that in some situations I just didn't get the subject matter, math and reading specifically. It's not that I wasn't being looked at constantly either by specialists and what not, you'd think that someone along the line could have had a moment of clarity and said: "Ah ha! This is the issue let's try and tackle it." For the most part I was told either you will get it at a point or you won't. Doesn't seem to me to be the way to go but it happened, it's over, let's move on. It just seems a little odd to me that with my medical history no one really looked into the way I learn since it's a large component to functionality as a person. I've done a few assessments over the years but they seem to tell the same story: Verbal skills above average, non verbal below average. What I would have liked in these reports was some elaboration as to "WHY?" but that seems to be the eternal human question.
For those confused just read my Body Dismorphia thread in the Body issues section I posted my Shame/Secrets survey there it has background.
Hard to lockdown
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Re: Hard to lockdown
I am an ass for thinking my minor struggles can inform your hardships, hardships that have caused you pain that you did not deserve. But I am an ass, so here goes...
I had a breakdown at 25, now I am 41, been in the "recovery game" for over 15 years, and only now see clearly how anxiety and depression have cast my whole life. The past is interesting only when it can give guidance for a better present and future.
Good writing comes from good thinking. The "non-verbal" score only measures what can be economically exploited by capitalists. You write well, so your thinking is sound. You, like many of us here, have an injured brain that causes pain. It is no small thing, but it hasn't robbed you of an identity outside of the pain.
Please take care, all the best, we here are all cheering for you and for your greatest today and tomorrow.
I had a breakdown at 25, now I am 41, been in the "recovery game" for over 15 years, and only now see clearly how anxiety and depression have cast my whole life. The past is interesting only when it can give guidance for a better present and future.
Good writing comes from good thinking. The "non-verbal" score only measures what can be economically exploited by capitalists. You write well, so your thinking is sound. You, like many of us here, have an injured brain that causes pain. It is no small thing, but it hasn't robbed you of an identity outside of the pain.
Please take care, all the best, we here are all cheering for you and for your greatest today and tomorrow.
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Re: Hard to lockdown
When I was young, i was a cutter. I'm supposed to be old enough to know better now, but the urge (along with some severe anxiety) is coming back and I don't know what to do. I tried to tell my husband that my state of mind is worsening, but we're fighting (all the time) and when I told him that he told me how much being with me is a roller coaster. Didn't even acknowledge that I had tried to ask for help. I could never commit suicide because of my children but I want to. I want to so much.
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Re: Hard to lockdown
faariwasi (hope I got that right 
), have you looked into the symptoms of borderline personality disorder..? Cutting often occurs in the younger years and difficulties with relationships usually follow. I’ve noticed that those with bpd have a difficult time trusting their spouses, spouses who love them very much, though often feel pushed away and frustrated...
I think most around here ‘get’ suicide… I know my children have unknowingly ‘saved’ my life. But you deserve more, and so does your family. I suggest finding a counselor familiar with borderline PD, they’d be best at diagnosing, and treating if needed.. But you gotta trust um.. and your husband, and between the two you’ll likely receive the best of care. Children are for unconditional loving, just as they love you.
), have you looked into the symptoms of borderline personality disorder..? Cutting often occurs in the younger years and difficulties with relationships usually follow. I’ve noticed that those with bpd have a difficult time trusting their spouses, spouses who love them very much, though often feel pushed away and frustrated... I think most around here ‘get’ suicide… I know my children have unknowingly ‘saved’ my life. But you deserve more, and so does your family. I suggest finding a counselor familiar with borderline PD, they’d be best at diagnosing, and treating if needed.. But you gotta trust um.. and your husband, and between the two you’ll likely receive the best of care. Children are for unconditional loving, just as they love you.