I advise everyone to write out their story like this, even if only to reread later for some clarity. I'm struggling a little again lately but rereading this reminded me of the strength I have had and thus still have. If I didn't kill myself after my treatment team sat me down and told me I would be petitioned for court guardianship, I'm obviously not going to let some unpleasant mania and a bad dream throw me off the rails. And the commitment I made to staying out of cop cars and out of psych admits still stands. It's been almost nine months and I've had only one admission, and it was less than 24 hours. Things'll be okay.
