YOU ARE NOT ALONE - A companion online community discussion board for The Mental Illness Happy Hour podcast with Paul Gilmartin

She finally did it. She presumed to tell me about photography. What they do and don't do. I was talking about one specific artist and she blew me off. Then she sees my problem with staying in focus (I have astigmatism). She tells me that I can't photograph kids because I would get too frustrated. Th...

I know I'm crazy. I don't have to read through my posts to know I'm not well. I haunt myself every day. In the past no ghost could compare to how much I scared myself. It's because of that I can't imagine going on. When I think about my dreams, my future; it isn't there. Even a crappy job and being ...

How do you know if your therapist has fired you? I received a vague certified letter from the VA. Mom opened it for me to tell me what it said and I got a vague idea that I will no longer be able to see my therapist and will have to be seen elsewhere. I don't want to sound like a total jackass. My f...

My dream was all about my fears. They mostly are, but rather than seeing someone hurt or upset my mother handed me over to medical personnel with a lie. I ended up in in the star seat of an auditorium, the high seats guaranteeing every face was visible. When I was asked about my most private actions...

In 2006 my son was stillborn. Afterwards I learned about the grief olympics. It's one of those quirky things you don't know until you unfortunately do. When people suffer they often suffer by comparison. "I have it worse because..." Who in the fuck wants to win the grief olympics? And it's...

A few of my family has asked me what I'm going to do. Now that I have nowhere to go it's a matter of where I choose to go. But I have no clue. My sister just found out she's doing clinicalS in Beloit. I was going back to southern Illinois but there is no point now. The only place I'm needed is here....

Yes, geese are the worst. Took my niece out again today and one hissed at me. They are everywhere this time of year. The path was too narrow to get further away. But the walking is good. My emotions are all over. I had to walk away from that sweet adorable girl this morning. And she followed me so I...

Despite not sleeping and the feeling of withdrawal from my meds I went out for a walk with my niece. She exhausted me but managed to make friends with a squirrel and managed not to anger the geese. By the time I got back it was the end of the day and every fat cell in my body was screaming for death...

Thank you but One thing about me is whenI write and am emotional I tend to skip words or make assumptions, much like I did in the middle of my sleepless night. And I realized now how the last sentence could be taken differently. I would like very much to not feel guilty. To do that at this time woul...

Why I keep coming back to express all my crazy here I don't know. But I just got taken off suicide watch with the VA and can only get one appointment every other month in this rural area. But I've jumped ahead. October, I was fired from my job at the non-profit, helping disabled people, like myself ...